When we first heard God calling us into full time ministry, my husband and I went through various struggles.
My struggles were that conversation you have with God, you know the ones where you try to reason with Him? I know you all have had them before. Mine went something like this, Lord, we cannot take 5 children into a 3rd world country! His answer, I will take care of your family. Lord, what if one of my children get hurt? His answer, Where is your faith? Lord, what about social skills my children need to live in the states? His answer, Do you think your children are going to learn more about Me in Uganda or the States, which one is more important? The conversation went on and on with God, everyday I had a new reason this should not be done. The Lord faithfully and patiently answered every single question.
Then came my husband, Randy started getting defensive every time Uganda came up in conversation, ( at this point I have not said anything about what I feel God doing because I knew God would speak to my husband and I was patiently waiting) I knew at this point with his defensiveness that he had heard the call too. I finally sat Randy down and asked him. He said yes, I know what God is asking, but how can I provide for my family there? How can I make sure they are safe there? How can I be the man I am supposed to be when I am relying on strangers?
It hit me right then and there how much my husband was saying I, I, I. He did not even know or realize what he was saying. I looked into my husbands eyes and said honey I love you, and I know that the world says it is your job to take care of us, but you are only helping God with that job. We are Gods children and He ultimately takes care of us. It is not about you, a mere human, can do for us, it is about God and what we can do for Him. My husband looked at me with tears streaming down his face and said Oh Lord please forgive me.
How many of us that God has called to do something that never listened? How many let the secular way of doing things stop us for His perfect will?
Lord, I pray that we put you first each and every day and that our fears do not get in the way.
We still have questions, will funding come through, will we find the perfect place to rent, will the children be happy, but as soon as we voice them to each other, the Lord provides us a peace. We are not going blindly, but with faith! Trusting our savior every step of the way!
The Goerings
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